I hate that I feel like I have to be guarded now. You can never again have that “Here is my entire heart” feeling once you’ve been hurt. You do it once and you learn. You learn you shouldn’t ever give your whole heart to someone. Once you’ve felt that hurt, that literally heart wrenching feeling, you put a suit of armor on it. My armor was starting to come off. And then the littlest TINIEST dumbest thing makes the armor snap on even tighter. Because why would I put myself through that again? But what if….what if…it works out. What if you get to feel that love, that lightness, that feeling of utter joy. Is it worth it?